I've taken an unplanned hiatus from my attempt towards consistent blogging. In March my little hongsong caught a virus that generously passed on to me. This continued for a few weeks of back and forth of virus passing among the baby, myself, and the hubs. It seemed that when we were all finally recovered we … Continue reading what am i doing wrong?
I've missed several days of blogging, but my darling has been sick which throws my world upside down. It's gut wrenching when you're trying to nurse your son, and you just see him writhing around gasping for air because he can't breathe and nurse at the same time, too congested. He's always been super mellow … Continue reading i’m sorry i don’t know how you feel
This morning was rough. The apple of my eye, my sweet honey-bee, my precious darling fell off the bed. I had assumed he was falling back asleep in my arms and that assumption was awakened by a thud. My good friend over at milkandhoney describes the scene so perfectly well, there's no need to detail … Continue reading Breaking the cycle of shame as a first time mom
Growing pains. My hongsong is teething and it hurts. It hurts him, it hurts me, it hurts his dad. Not sure who it hurts the most, but oh my goodness, it hurts. Tonight he was having a blast in one of his favorite routines - his bath. He sat in his duck tub playing with … Continue reading road to whole heartedness – day 4
I always think of 9 months as the period to birth something. Baby boy turned 9 months last week and I've been reflecting for awhile on this. 9 months is such an interesting milestone. It took me 9 months to grow and birth my little hongsong and here he is 9 months later, out of … Continue reading 9 lessons birthed in 9 months
The More. In the summer of 2009, I was serving at a youth conference far from home, exhausted, confused, and bitter. For the first time ever, I heard the song "the more I seek You" by Kari Jobe. I was struck by the words and the intimacy that the melody cooed. I can still remember … Continue reading road to whole heartedness – day 2
During this Lenten season, I will be blogging a reflection, a thought, or a devotional each day. The theme over the next 39 days will be "the road to whole heartedness". I hope you will join me! 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” 37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all … Continue reading road to whole heartedness – day 1
The past two weeks have been rough. Like, I think I've hit my mental and physical limit rough. Filled with so many beautiful highs like celebrating my husband's birthday and having our first dinner date out together for the first time in nine months. Yet the lows... were pretty low. I work from home most … Continue reading don’t see me
I started perusing instagram a lot more lately and I've discovered another mom world. I didn't realize there were so many worlds, but I found another one. It's the moms of instagram, often bloggers like myself. I find myself captivated by them and their instagrams and their beautiful families. Their photos are pristine and their … Continue reading and then there’s me.
I was bullied as a child. It's strange because as a child I didn't consider it bullying; I considered it more the norm of childhood. There was this Queen B who, when things were good between us, was my best friend and made me feel like one of the coolest kids in school. She had … Continue reading i want to belong